“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you.
Before you were born I set you apart,
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”
I’m still not quite sure why I do it, but, I always try to “develop” myself into something else. Under the guise of “plan, do, study, act” I look at my failures, try to “develop” those failures out so that I become a better version of myself. For all intents and purposes, that’s not a bad thing. But, somehow, something in me takes it to a different level that involves battling thoughts of illegitimacy, being a fraud, stupid, uneducated, worthless, rejected. My most recent failure set the cycle off all over again. This time though, I want to let God speak. Maybe it’s not a failure. Maybe it’s his will that puts me on a different path. Just maybe this is part of his process in changing me into what he purposed for me from before I was even born. Just maybe I can relax and trust his process.
My prayer for today is that God’s voice and his love for me would speak louder to me than the accuser of the brethren (Rev 12:10). Help me to trust his process to develop me into what he wants not what I think I need to be. Only God can equip me for the purpose that he created me to fulfill.